I ment the one from a week ago about the stupid laws and all. I think the www brought us together to help fight them and grow amazing medicine! Look at all the changes in just the last 10-15 yrs the amazing strains… forums like this… people coming together to help those of us with less experience less knowledge…
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Greetings all. I wasn’t going to bother with this but you folks have been kind to someone new and not sure of things. @piper was just going out of his way to be an asshole and there is no reason to take it out on you kind souls. Yeah, I know community guidelines and all that and I went that route but since @piper confuses being civil with being weak, well thats the end of that and no reason to ever waste civility on him again.
Bottom line though is time isn’t something I have alot of to waste in the first place. I have been working and learning on my own (with some remote tutelage) for years and since…well since things are becoming more urgent I thought to share what I learned and figured out with my own two hands. But time is not just a calendar thing. Its hard to explain but I only get a little time each day where I am sane enough to make words on the computer, hell most of the time I can’t even turn it on. Its just how this is, its progressive and at this point its like I have Alzheimers about 22 hours a day, counting sleep. The remainder is spent in some state between there and where I started from in 2011. So if I don’t get everything out in that session…its just…gone. Sometimes it returns, most times not. So when the starts lined up and I was sane, in front of the laptop and actually awake and medicated enough, I would write and since writing used to be part of my gig, I used that time to write my ass off. Most times an hour later I have no fucking clue what I just wrote…documenting something like this isn’t super-hard to begin with but if you want to do a good job and not screw it up, it takes work and when getting your brain to do anything involving organization is like herding cats, it becomes hard and painful AF.
If there is a payoff, if someone learns, if anything good comes of it, then the pain has been worth it. When the unwarranted grief and pain from someone who won’t even fucking read anything comes, that my friends is where the pain makes it simply not worth fending off the fools. I have like a year of “something resembling sanity” left; moreso now, less so later but thats when my calendar shows “potted plant status”. IOW end game for me. There is nothing that could talk me into listening to @pipers simple-minded bullshit for that year and all things being equal, I feel pretty certain he would like fewer thiings on this site that are hard for him to understand, so thats basically it. I was doing a Trellis project grow journal on my own site long before I came here and can easily catch it up and finish it there.
Like I tried to say (fog rolling in must stop and log off soon) you folks have been kind and patient with someone unaccustomed to the ways here and your questions and suggestions have been great ones so while I have little use for this environment, I would be happy to answer questions or whatever if you like, my ping me for an email address…otherwise the rest of the Trellis Project (likely my last) will complete at www.livingwithlewybodydementia.com.
peace…
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He still sounds and writes paragraphs like MK, is it a coincidence that most things he said in another thread are the exact words he used, and the hatred of auto’s and the comparison of auto’s to photo’s.
I threw my 2 cents in I could be wrong
I am a very proud asshole and I speak truth whether you want to hear it or not, that is what I believe in
You may stay
I will leave, I have if, maybe 5 - 10 years of life to live, your kind is not what I want to see in my last days
Be lucky that you can dress yourself, feed yourself, wipe your own ass, cut your own food, I can’t, I am basically paralyzed on my left side I never mentioned any of the stuff that I can’t do, I also need a wheelchair most of my waking time, on my good days I use a cane, I can’t use a walker because you need 2 arms.
I also have electrical wires hooked up to my spine and have to carry a black box and a battery with me for the rest of my life, at night I have to wear a diaper
I haven’t made any of this public on the forum, because outside I get treated differently and I don’t want that here. This is a place like my grow tent, a place I can forget, enjoy, so when someone comes along that sounds like MK I am going to call that person out.
I don’t spread in every post about my conditions, thats wrong and unfair to others.
If your not MK I apologize
Again, I left, you stay, I don’t like people who feel sorry for themselves and let every thread/post know it.
luv ya’s all, it’s been great
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Hey you old bastard, don’t you dare leave!
Everybody can live together in peace guys… common both of you have people that care about them here.
I hesitated to write anything on that topic because judgment flies high and fast here, but in this very occasion I don’t care…
Nobody needs to leave, just ignore each other like grown man…
Please take 2 minutes to think about this :
These are just a few observations I saw while reading your posts gentlemen 
:
@piper, your body is deteriorating fast and you are losing function of your limbs and are wracked by physical pains and mental anguish and impatience.
@lbdwarrior, your mind is going fast and you are left with a body you can’t use properly anymore. It drives a sense of urgency to finalize your projects and impatience when not properly understood…
Both of you are using Cannabis as a way to alleviate the pain and help with your conditions…
Both of you are no-nonsense old wolves with the temper that goes with it…
And finally, both of you like to help others as much as you can, each in your own way…
So my conclusion is this : This forum can live with the both of you in it! Just ignore each other if you can’t stand each other. You both have people that like you dearly here and could profit from your experiences…
@lbdwarrior : whatever @piper thinks of you should have no incidence in your goals. You wanted to teach your wife to help you… well teach and stop bitching.
@piper : since when do you care what people think of you? I for one will be pissed and really sad if you leave!
Now everybody light a big fucking (pardon my french here) joint and CHILL!
Peace and Love to all who wants it, the others will get what they want anyway! (there’s many level to that sentence…)
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Perfectly said @kapouic. I was struggling to find the right words as I look up both. I will need help from each of you at different times. If you guys tell me 2 completely different things so what! It is up to me to decide how I will proceeded.
Please both of you STAY!
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Very good words @kapouic and @fifth I totally agree with you.
I’m in lockdown on my own in a crappy flat in a wet shitty dull town somewhere in police state UK. You guys and my grow is the only thing keeping me sane! Please @lbdwarrior and @piper do not go anywhere! I will miss you guys!! 
Please don’t go - you teach me so much in an enjoyable way n I love it. Xxx
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I just found this topics. Jeff, you sir are my hero! I have already learned a great deal about growing and about life from your first post. You will always be you. Keep fighting the good fight. God(s), Spirit, Source, the Universe bless and keep you.
Mt father had dementia. We think it was from being a professional boxer in the 1920s.
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Great find @mrwonderful